Third times the charm.

Today was a very momentous day. Soaking in the rays of the Hawaii sun with Erica and talking about what the future holds for us...what more could I want? Well, the one thing on my mind was "Can I just know what I'm doing with my life next year? Is that too much to ask?" As I'm sure you all know, I've been trying to get into BYU provo for a while. I have actually been denied twice already. So I've been thinking a lot about what I'm supposed to be doing. Should I stay here? Go to ASU or UA? I really had no idea. I've had the BYU Admission Status page pulled up on my phone for a while and I refresh it like every hour to see if anything changes. Day after day, all it said was "complete". It started to drive me crazy! I really wasn't expecting to get in at all...but I did! In fact, I was more leaning towards staying here in Hawaii and graduating. I honestly would have no problem with that! I LOVE it here. But I think that I only like the Hawaii aspect of being here. I mean, who wouldn't?! When I start to think about why I like it here so much, I started to realize that the school itself isn't as amazing as I thought it was because all I was thinking about was the beach. I don't fee like I would get a full college experience here if I ended up graduating from here. Here's why I think this...we don't have any big sports teams, no night life, not much dating either. There are a lot of things that you are supposed to experience in college that you just don't get here. Im so stuck on what I am supposed to do. I love both places, it's just decided what I want more and think is best for me....which I feel like might end up being Utah, but what kind of crazy person would want to leave hawaii?! Im so confused! Its tough. Im trying to listen to everyones opinions and decide what I should do but its so hard to pick! We'll see where life takes me. Im just happy to know that I have accomplished getting in. I've been working so hard to get in and I finally did. I definitely have more confidence in what I am capable of doing and achieving now.